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It is God's will that I share this today

For most of today I didn’t have much to do and asked my mom if she wanted to take a walk around Pacific Mall. It has probably been a year or so since the last time my mom, my bother and I went to a mall on purpose. I know that my mom has been really hard working for me, for my bother and for the family. All my life, she has been the caring mom I have ever wanted but did not show much appreciation for. She cooks for me every morning and makes my lunch for me before I go to work. I come home from work very tired, and knowing that she has so much work ahead of her, she still picks me up at the GO or bus station. I’ve always wanted to tell her how much I loved her but didn’t because I was afraid of showing my feelings. I think it's a guy thing but I didn't seem to care to much then. But it was Christ who gave my strength, my will and all that I have. When Jesus dwells in my life, everything available to Jesus dwells in me. “and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-that you many be filled to the measure of all the fullness of god” (Ephesians 3:16-19) I thanked my mom for making me dinner for the first time today. For the past 3 hours, my mind has been in a state of deep thought, thinking about my life and all that has happened in the past. I can’t change the past, but I know I can make a better future and be a better servant to God. “My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mysteries of god, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.” (Colossians 2:2-4) I have realized that when you pay attention to him, he will pay attention to you.