Journals

New Year's Eve

Some people may think that New Year's Eve is a day filled with fun, joy and laughter. I was one of those people who beileved that until this year when I was hit on the head by reality. Things are often not as simple as they appear. They normally come with some sort of interconnectedness that is entwined in the complex behaviour of ourselves. A good example is when we think of something and do the other. Doesn't make sense eh. But to understand the world, is not to try to understand psychological behaviour of man. To give in to god's creation and to accept what has been given.

Tis' been a not so good day for me. For one, I broke my glasses today because of stupidity. Now I have to fork out another bill to repair it. To add on to that, the other complication to my life has been solved but sadness dwells. I used to think that I have a strong character, but heroes are only human. I begin to doubt myself, as I reflect back on perhaps how blinded I was by my own self comfort that I accepted what not is. Perhaps I've been fooling myself all along. I know where I want to be, but not putting the effort along the way. I need to renew myself by turing to a new page. 2004 is here.