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I felt really sick yesterday. I had finished dinner just in time to be late for church. Usually, I don't eat dinner before and that's usually when I'm on time. But at yesterday's fellowship, we only had 9 people attend. I was a little disappointed to see only a few people there. I guess because a lot of brothers and sisters still have exams and need to study.

As I drove to church, I was a little "out of it" already. Maybe because of the flu pills that I took before eating dinner that was kicking in. I was a little sleepy during fellowship but kept myself awake for the entire time, even during devotion. I had thought about many things that have happened in my life. Some thoughts included some of the things in the past that I did for thrill and fun. I remember that when I was in elementary school, a couple of friends and I were competing on who can steal the most stacks of cover stock. When we got caught, I remember I was in tears, trying to get pitty because I could go to jail for it. I think the incident was kept quiet and we all learned our lesson.

Often I heard about rich people stealing clothing and jewelery. They have all the money in the world they need and they are stealing? Humm.. probably for the same reason, for FUN.

My life hasn't all been a straight arrow. I remember getting into trouble in high school for fighting. There was this one person who got on my nerves since elementary school. I tolerated him quite a bit and the teachers can't really do anything about it. This guy just wouldn't go away and continue to bug me. Some of the things going through my head at that time was, if I had a gun, I can aim it right at his head to see if he will be so cocky then. I ended up having a fight with him, went to the principal and got off with a warning. Eversince, he didn't mind any my business. Violence solves problems?

Lately, I've heard about a lot of gun incidents at many schools. I can feel their pain. The ones who were shot probably deserved it. However, I'm not one of those fortunate people to do what I think or I would have been in jail now. Fault is not totally on the gunman but on society as a whole. If only things could be prevented from the beginning.

Posted by SquallAngel at April 24, 2004 04:17 PM | TrackBack